Wednesday, November 21, 2012

The whole trip


There’s a heavy fog out this morning. Driving through it was like watching a negative develop. It was like being a part of an unfinished painting. Driving through that fog felt like a half remembered dream. It reminded me of the quote “writing is like driving at night in the fog. You can only see as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way.” —E.L. Doctorow. Been doing a lot of that lately; slowly moving forward with no sight of what’s really ahead. At some point you kind of learn to trust the unknown, sometimes you start to ease into the uncertainty, and sometimes you just want to be rewarded for following your gut.



I’m not sleeping again. The dreams are getting worse. Everyone is constantly talking. They’re so close and up in my face. The situations vary but have the same underlying tone; I forgot to do something or I have no idea what it is I need to do. The bags under my eyes are getting ridiculous. A deprived badge of honor I would rather stop earning.  

 

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