Thursday, July 26, 2012

Snot and boogers and pillow sobbing


At some point you just break. And everything you ever feared or doubted about yourself comes to the surface. I’m starting to think that I don’t belong anywhere. I’m starting to think that I’ve forgotten what happiness feels like. I’m starting to think I need to start over.

It’s like I’m the loser in high school with no friends, desperately wanting for freshman year of college to start. To have the choice to finally be who you really are and find the people that help you get there, not hold you back.

I've had a hard time in the past telling myself that I have had too much. But i can say, without a trace of shame or embarrassment, I am at my limit of unhappiness. I’m done feeling this way. I’m over living a life that makes me feel numb and worthless. I will find the courage to stand up for myself. The only option of failure left, is pretending that <this> is enough for me. 




“If you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure don’t deserve me at my best.”

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