Just want to be healthy

Back spasms and pain all last night. Hoping it was the last night because today my legs feel looser and I’m not walking with so much of a limp. Bad news about it all is that I didn’t get to sleep until after 3am. Then I was up at 6:30am. Needless to say, I was dry sobbing this morning; wanting nothing more than to stay warm and try to get a few more hours of sleep. Might leave work early today if I can’t keep my eyes open. Nothing really to say. I’m just exhausted right now of being sick and in pain. I just want to be healthy and back to 100%. 

Every once in a while, I get really nostalgic for being in elementary school. How simple the days were. You wake up, go to school and play all day. Come home and play some more. Eat dinner with your family. Do homework or go to basketball practice. Then go to bed by 9pm. It was easy. It was so simple. You didn’t worry about buying things you didn’t really need. Or getting caught up in drama that started online. You could just sit in your bed and read until your mom told you for the fifth time that you need to go to sleep. I miss those days of being innocent sometimes. Of not knowing the cruel realities the world is made up of. Don’t get me wrong, life is wonderful and amazing. Just sometimes, sometimes I wish I could be 9 years old again.