So many people my age are popping out kids and walking down the aisle. And if you would have asked me 8 months ago how I felt about it, I would say WHY ISN’T THIS HAPPENING TO ME? But now, all I can think is ohthankgod.
Not that
I don’t want all the happily ever after and 3am diaper changes, it’s just that
I’m happy right now. I don’t want to rush into anything that isn’t natural. I
don’t want to push anything quicker than its own perfectly-timed course. I know
the time will come when everything will happen with marriage and wedding
planning. And trust me, binders of organization and beautiful choices will have
me on cloud nine every moment of the day. But until then I want to focus on
getting my own place and starting my independent adult life away from the nest
egg. It makes me shutter that I have been home for 3 years come May. The good
thing about living at home is all the money I am able to save. I will forever
be grateful for that.
More and
more my mind drifts to wall decoration and throw pillows. To open windows and
refrigerator light. To the stillness of mornings and the clunk of the deadbolt.
I want to find a place to live that makes me feel like I’m finally coming home
every day. And if it happens to be by the beach in a very warm climate state, I
mean, that happens right?
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