Inception jokes NOT included

Depending on how well you know me, you will at one point have had to listen to me retelling one of my many bizarre dreams. Dreams like I’m asleep at night dreams. Not I want to marry Andy Sandberg dreams. Now I don’t have normal dreams like I was in a forest and then there was a tree. I’m not a hobbit and my imagination is waaaaaaaaaaaaaay more messed up than that.

For the most part, my dreams are so complex and detailed filled, they should be a 20^th Century Fox Production. I’m sure everyone has crazy dreams but I remember minute details of them to the point where I can recall facial expressions, patterns on clothing and 20 more minutes worth of details.

I am super into interpreting dreams and writing down key words to look up later. The coolest part about dreams is that they really do give you an insight to your waking life. Recently, I have been having the same Hunger Games-like dream. Now I know what you’re thinking, “Lex, although the movie was decent (-and the books were a billion times better like always- and thank you for saying the books were better. No one reads anymore and I always feel so lame because I am the only person under the age of 48 and over the age of 3 that goes to the library-and checks books out- on a weekly basis) I bet you’re having these dreams because you’re so into the series.

False.

I saw the movie a month ago, and I have moved on with my life. But having this reoccurring dream about being put in an arena to fight or to have to survive in a barren land is not completely all about being a fan of a fiction series. I think a lot of it has to do with the THEME of the dream.

Which would be fighting and defending.

I’m not sure if I’m having a quarter life crisis (a year early, I know, I mature fast) or what, but lately, everything and I mean everything feels like a battle.

Career

Between trying to get taken seriously or continuing to defend my work and prove that I am capable of responsibilities- it’s an uphill daily battle.

Improv

Pushing myself to get outside my comfort zone and fail. Which sounds weird but it’s the only way I will get better. And I’m trying to be amazing for myself and team and make something out of this comedy dream.

Relationships

It’s wearisome continuing to show that I mean what I say and I’m all in. All the time.

It’s rough when you don’t know your place in the world. Or where you stand with certain people. It makes me borderline panic attacky wondering where or what (please don’t let me be homeless) I will be in a year from now. Even in a month from now. My life is forever shifting from day to day. A choice I make today could affect my life path. That freaks me out. Granted all I plan on doing today is eating Subway (footlong on the flat bread, toasted, turkey, American cheese, lettuce, pickles and mayo) and writing, so I might be safe from any life altering decisions. 

I digress.

Dreams. My dreams lately have had a lot to do with bathrooms. Now, yes, I do get up frequently to pee during the night. No, I will not see a doctor, I am fine. Yes I mind you continually asking me about it. Maybe I will stop drinking water so close to going to sleep. Yes you are annoying me. Are you done? Great.

I couldn't resist

Bathrooms- in dreams- can symbolize a ton of different meanings (obviously). The dream I had last night involved me going into a public bathroom and not waiting in line to use the next current available stall. The first stall I tried to go in was occupied by a maintenance man trying to fix it. Then I went into the last one, shut the door, and did my business. Which really was just me sitting on the toilet. Then flushing and feeling better.

Interpretation of said dream

Bathrooms usually indicate how we are feeling emotionally. I was in a public bathroom which means that my emotional state is being shared by many people-in public. This makes sense because 1- I write this blog and don’t hold back about a lot of stuff and 2- I share everything with my friends.

Not waiting in line for the bathroom means that I am actually putting myself first- above everyone else’s feelings. This is something that is new to me. I am the person that will make sure everyone else is accommodated and happy before I worry- and even then it doesn’t matter- about my happiness. So the fact that I had no guilt about putting myself first is a good thing. It means I am finally understanding and standing up for what I know is right. For me.

The maintenance guy throws me for a loop but I think it means that my first choice was someone trying to “fix me” but I didn’t want any part of it. Instead of taking his help I moved on and found another solution.

Doing my business in a bathroom is symbolic because it is literally “flushing out emotions and worries”. Wonder why I am dreaming about doing that. (ß That was sarcasm in case the text didn’t translate my eye rolling and snort.)

I’m overwhelmed by a lot right now. I think I am just going to take a page out of my bathroom book reader and listen to my dreams. So here’s to sitting in my metaphorical stall and flushing out my thoughts and emotions. Life stinks sometimes.

But poop humor makes it a little better.